Snowboarding!

Ermm... I don't know if anyone's interested in hearing about my recent snowboarding experience, but I've got nothing else to write about. I finally got to go snowboarding a few days ago. I didn't go to a proper resort,I just went to this slope that's on Broadview, and it was great. I only fell about two times in three hours, so I was quite happy about that. The snow wasn't packed,fortunately, so I didn't end up with any bruises. I also got a lot better at doing turns and stops. The last time when I went snowboarding I had kind of given up on doing turns because I was so terrible at them. So I guess this is where my post ends...'cause I've kind of ran out of things to say...

Snow!

It's snowing outside which means that I'll be able to go snowboarding soon! :D I'm quite happy about that. Oh, and, also about the fact that school's over with for this year. So,I don't know what else to write about. At the moment I'm listening to some music, Moonspell. I don't think anyone's heard of them. They're a Portuguese metal band that I got into when I was in grade 7. The album that I'm listening to now, is "The Antidote". It's one album that I find great to listen to when it's snowing outside. Maybe that's because of it's misty atmosphere. But it's not just that album, most of their older stuff has that same atmosphere to it.

Applying for Uni

So, I've finally applied to University. I would've proffered to have waited for another week so I could do my research properly, but my mom got on my case about it, and made me apply. But, I don't know if I choose the program that suits me best, even if that's not the case, I know I'll have the opportunity to change it during the winter break.

I just wish we had more time to choose the right program. I've felt very rushed lately with everything, and I couldn't really fit "researching for the right program" into my schedule.

Winter break

I'm really excited about the winter break approaching. I can't wait to be over with all of these assignments and just rest. It seems like I won't be getting much homework over the break, but even if I do, I don't plan to do any of it during the first week. For that one week, I want to forget the meaning of the word school.

As for my plans over the winter break, I'll be going snowboarding at Barrie (because Blue Mountain is always packed) which will be a lot of fun. The last time I went there, I didn't have my own snowboarding equipment and I had to rent out a board, which gave me an extremely hard time when snowboarding, because it was very hard to control. But this year, I have a new, proper board, so it should be fun.

Metaphors Extended... part 2

I added a few more lines to last week's metaphors. Here they are:


#1

Love is a grenade
The seconds are numbered away,
Until someone will pull the pin,
And scatter chaos into your world
Chaos, that will pierce your mind.

Then the remnants of the past will penetrate-
Through your skin, and they will hide
Then every step you'll further take
Will be a remainder, of the past.

The aching pain will then vibrate
And remind you of what was destroyed
And of what remains at this moment;
Fragments of a broken statue.

#2

Love is a cool drink of water
It soothes the soul from the fires of life,
From the chaos that surround us.
Yet it makes pawns of us:
It makes us vulnerable to it's every move.

It gives us the impression that we're in control
And able to make our crucial move
While the truth remains untold:
It is not us, that's determining our route.

#3
Life is a dream,
It can be beautiful;
It can seem surreal
But at the same time
It can turn into a nightmare.

You have the ability to shape it
Like you can shape your dream
But when it turns into a nightmare
You can only hope that you'll wake up.

Metaphors

Metaphor number 1:

Love is a grenade
The seconds are numbered away,
Until someone will pull the pin,
And scatter chaos into your world
Chaos, that will pierce your mind.

Love is a cool drink of water
It soothes the soul from the fires of life,
From the chaos that surround us.
Yet it makes pawns of us:
It makes us vulnerable to it's every move.

Life is an oak tree,
Every path in life
Will lead to a certain branch, a certain leaf
But to reach all of them throughout the course of life
Is something that can never be attained.

Life is a dream,
It can be beautiful;
It can seem surreal
But at the same time
It can turn into a nightmare.

Super Powers

Today, in Studies in Literature I had to come up with my own superhero. This made me think about what superpower I would like to have if I would get the ability to choose, and so far I've come up with a list of three superpowers that I cannot seem to choose from. Clairvoyance would be pretty cool. After all, who isn't curious about what will occur in the future? But at the same time, I also think that the ability to teleport one's self would also make a great superpower. And not only would it save time, but it would also save money. The last of my top three favorite super powers is the ability to fly. I know, it's a common one. But I bet there isn't one person in this world that hasn't wished at some point that they had the ability to fly. I mean, how cool would it be to be able to see the world from above and not need to use the crowded buses, or be struck in traffic every time that you'd need to travel? So what about everyone else? What superpower would you like to have?

Room: At Night Time & Day Time

At Night Time:

I feel like I am one with the darkness. Nothing around me is visible around me because I am surrounded by darkness, but I feel comfortable in the silence of the room after such a long and chaotic day. As the time passes my eyes are getting adjusted to the darkness.Now the outlines of some of the objects that are in my room are clearly visible; my desk, the chandelier, my cd player. They're all starting to be visible now. I could feel my breath slowing down as I'm starting to slowly settle down in bed and find a comfortable spot. My thoughts are slowly starting to drift away from the real to the surreal. All the thoughts that I've "collected" throughout the day are now starting to emerge. They're being modeled out in front of me as I'm slowly settling into the world of dreams...


During Day Time:

The Scenery from beyond the window seems pop out as I'm drawn to the window. It isn't much, but when I need time to think, I'm always drawn to this spot over and over again. Out the window I could see our lively back garden, as well as the other neighbors' back gardens. Then, while tilting my head to the left side the gigantic "Forester's" building emerges. It is like a creature that never rests, because its lights are constantly turned on. Speaking of saving energy, hehe, I guess they could care less. I decide to see if there is anything else that I could do here, but because of the simplicity of my bedroom I find nothing else that interests me, so I decide to go downstairs instead...

Foreign Bands

I was just wondering if anyone else listens to bands that are from somewhere else other than North America. They could be foreign bands that sing in English, or any other language. I'm just asking because I haven't come across many people that do. Most of the people that I've talked to about music seem to only listen to mainstream bands, the type that are constantly being played by MTV/Much music.

I remember when I was in Grade 9, and I was really into Industrial German Rock. My favorite band at that time was Rammstein. I also listened to Megaherz, Oomph! and other German bands. I still listen to them actually, just not as much as I used to. Anyways, one of the main questions that I was constantly asked by people once they found out that I listened to German music was: "Are you German?" I always found it amusing because they immediatly jumped to the conclusion that because I listened to German rock, I must be German. When the truth is that I simply like to expand my horizon when it comes to music. I never enjoy being limited to what this society gives me, because the greater majority of bands that they play on MTV/Much music are lacklustre.

I also enjoy listening to French rock from time to time. My favourite French rock band is Noir Désir. Other foreign bands that I listen to are Omul cu Sobolani (Romanian), Lacuna Coil (Italian), Moonspell (Portuguese) and several British Rock bands such as Muse and Placebo.

Halloween part 2

So in one of my earlier posts, I said that I would be going trick-or-treating for Halloween. Well, I changed my mind yesterday because when I went out all dressed up for Halloween with my boyfriend, we looked around and saw all that most of the trick-or-treaters seemed to be 4-10 years old. Which, of course made us feel odd since we were so much older than the rest of the kids.So instead we just walked around on Danforth wearing our masks.

The mask that I choose was the one which I posted about earlier, the plain white mask. I'll try and find a pick of it so I could post it here. But what it is basically, is one of those Venetian masks, minus the vivid colors that Venetian masks often have. The closest example that I could think of is the mask from "Vanilla Sky". Which I thought was an awesome film.

Anyways, here's a pic: http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2347/2247443422_fbe3bfff25.jpg
It's a blurry pic, but you could kinda get the idea. Of course, on the actual mask the nose and the mouth are far more visible. And what I wore the mask with was very different from what the person in that picture is wearing it with. I wore it with my black winter coat, and I had my hair back and my hood on the whole time. Which I thought made me look like one of those odd cult members.

What makes me happy

What makes me really happy is being with friends, or with other individuals that I feel comfortable with. Even though I'm really quiet most of the time (especially in class), when I come across a friend of mine, I'm always very open with them, and talk to them about anything. I'm the same with my boyfriend. We constantly talk about things, but not just any things. We, of course, talk about our interests, how our day went and so on.

Something else that really makes me happy is when I have something to look forward to. Like a concert, a holiday,a trip, and even a P.A day (at times). It's the anticipation of that event which really makes me happy. Not having many responsibilities also makes me happy: although it's usually only for a while, because once I have too much free time on my hand I start to get bored.

What makes me angry

I hate it when I work really hard to achieve something (a mark, or anything like that) and then when the achievement turns out to be less than I expected. Or when I feel like I'm weighed down by the endless amount of work, and like I will never manage to get through it all. I hate that. Maybe because I'm a Sagittarius and Saggitarians supposedly like freedom, and can't stand being chained back by their responsibilities.

Something else that I also hate it being in a hurry and having to quickly eat my lunch. I'm a very slow eater, so it really gets on my nerves when I know that I quickly have to eat my lunch so I could get something done. When that happens, it's as if I don't even enjoy the food because the adrenaline surge must be numbing my taste buds.

Decisions

I bet most people have taken decisions which they didn't know where they would lead, but in the end of it all, they turned out to be glad they took them. Something similar to that happened to me tonight, although it wasn't a crucial decision that I had to take, it was still a decision, and taking it opened my eyes to something new.

It all happened tonight, when I met up my boyfriend after work and we walked along Yonge street. After which we decided that it'd be cool for us to go to this nearby park while it's dark. Well, it isn't just any park, it's more like a botanical garden. It's similar to Edwards Gardens, but actually has more trees than grassland. Anyways, when we got there I convinced him that it'd be cool to go in the forest that was partially dark (it wasn't completely dark thanks to the nearby tenis court that was light up), and once we went in the forest we both felt kind of uneasy thinking that some sleepy hobo or some creeps might be lurking in that forest. But the next thing that I remember is hearing something moderately heavy jump on the leaves, which made my heart skip a beat, and when we turned around we saw that it was a fox! I couldn't believe it, it was less than 5 meters away from me and because of it's bright orange fur it was still visible even in the partial darkness. It was the first time when I had seen a fox roam around freely.

Anyways, my point is that if certain risks are not taken then that person will miss out on experiences which they would've had otherwise. Such as the experience which would've never occured if I didn't dare to go in that forest tonight.

Childhood memories

I was just wondering what some of the most memorable childhood memories people have. Specifically the circumstances under which they learned something, such as riding a bike. One of the most memorable ones that I have, is when I learned to tie my own shoe laces. Even though it seems like something really simple and negligible, to me it seemed like a huge accomplishment at that time.

Anyways, that day I was with a mom at a shop and she was paying for something, which is exactly when I happened to notice that my shoe laces were untied. So, because she was busy and was unable to help me and tie my shoe laces, I knelt down and tried to do it myself. Which took me about a minute to figure out, but before I knew it, I got it right. Which in the end turned out to be completely worth it, because the pride that I felt from that one accomplishment was unimaginable. And now that I think about it, that might have been the origin of me liking to accomplish things by myself rather than asking for help. Because just like in the past, I still feel better once I figure something out by myself, rather than when someone helps me with it. But this can also be a disadvantage I guess, because of not asking for help when needing it.

Anyways, one other things that I remember learning is riding my bike (just like most people do). Which is why I guess it's not really worth mentioning: because my experience with it is not going to be very different from anyone else's.

Conversation

Today, I heard one of the most disturbing conversations on the subway, and the scary part is that it wasn't between two people, it was between a single person which I'm guessing had the multiple personality disorder. That's because she kept on switching back and forth between what seemed like her normal voice, and her "other" voice, which she refered to as "Ana" So, I'll refer to what seemed as her "normal" voice as "voice number 1" and the second one as "voice number 2."

Voice number 1: It's normal, everybody has to die sometime. They all hit the stacks.
*Woman making weird sounds which sounded like screeches. At first I thought it was a baby, but it was only later on that I realized it was her making those sounds*
Voice number 2: I don't want to kill them.
*woman changes her seat*
Voice number 1: Why can't I just switch you off of my brain Ana?
Voice number 2: I don't want to kill those people.

This is only a short excerpt from the 5-10 minute conversation that I heard, which made me feel extremely uncomfortable but also very curious as to what drove her insane and whether she really knew, or used to know a person named "Ana." The conversation, was obviously about her struggling against the idea of wanting to kill someone, and it seemed to me as her "normal" voice seemed to be dominating the feeble second voice, and pressuring it into doing certain deeds which it didn't want to be doing.

Even just writing this conversation hurts my head, because it's so disturbing when trying to remember which one of her voices was saying what. But I thought it was far more intriguing than some of the other conversations that I've heard over the past few days,which is why I thought it was worth writing about.

Halloween

It's almost that time of the year again. The time of ghostly costumes and candy, and I think I'll be going trick-or-treating this year. The last time I went was in grade 6 I believe, and it was very fun. Then in grade 7 and 8, I had nobody to go trick-or-treating with, which is not the case this year.

I'm not sure what I'll be going as, but I did go to the "It's my Party" shop on Danforth where I saw a cool white mask. I didn't try it on, but what I liked about it was the fact that it was expressionless, which I find far creepier than a "Scream" mask or any other gory looking mask.

Anyways, when I was younger I used to opt for most of the standard Halloween costumes. For example, I went trick-or-treating as a witch, as a vampire,and other cliche characters. But at that time I wasn't interested at all into having a costume that stood out; all I wanted was one of the most popular costumes, so that everyone would know what I was going trick-or-treating as without needing to ask for clarification.

But the fact that Halloween is on a Friday this year also contributed to me choosing to go trick-or-treating. Had it been on any other day, then I wouldn't have even thought of being capable of doing it.